What word did you select to be your traveling companion in 2012? What gifts did this word bring?
What word will you choose to guide you through 2013? What do you hope it will bring into your life? Reverb12 prompt#29
2012’s one little word was love. 2011’s word was joy. Both were chosen in response to wishing the following year would be better than the previous.
2010 was spent either drugging my son’s mental illness into submission or being the object of his unmedicated torture. LIAR! THIEF! DUMB! TheRAPIST! Words were spray painted on the kitchen wall, my bedroom door, the hallway. I was shot with a BB gun and rubberbands, hit with flying boots, bowls of hot soup, bags of cat food, attacked with snarls of f*cking fat bitch! I was often locked out of the house, once barefoot with an unleashed dog. He told me all the time, “I wish you were dead so I could have the insurance money.” Also, I was estranged from my daughter. She believed my son’s “behavior issues” were all resulting from my failure as a parent. I decided JOY would help make 2011 better.
And it did. My son ran away to live with his sister in Boston (she is a saint) and was eventually hospitalized for the 3rd time. He came home and we had a lovely, golden summer. But then I had bronchitis (in August!), my favorite kitty was hit by a car, I broke two toes, and the kitchen ceiling fell on my head. And, of course, my breast cancer diagnosis – I was mostly sure at my September 23 check up, but it was confirmed by the pathology report on October 10. Surgery, chemo, support, kindness, generosity. My daughter and I gradually started to reconcile. Yay 2011! Yay joy! I wanted the good stuff to continue, so for 2012, I chose love.
2012 has been a good year. Radiation sucked, but I like my doctor. Reconstruction surgery, continuing reconciliation with my kids, healing for me and my son, support, kindness, generosity, love. Love. Love.
Do all things with love. Of faith, hope, love; love is the greatest. All you need is love. Love is the answer. With our love we can save the world – certainly Patricia, and Joe, and Rachel. Love is the strongest medicine.
Oh yes. I want the good stuff to continue. So for 2013, I choose hope.
Where there is life, there is hope. There is life here.